Ghost

Afraid, I am not anymore
the thought of losing, abandoned
I will walk again, or maybe not
the numbness is now gone, or so I thought
my emotions have taken a complicated route
I have confused the conspiracy
the words are lost
the meanings unwritten
to understand is difficult
I imagine what does not exist for others
I live in a world filled with people but there is no one
nothingness is what I am compelled to be
no one knows me
never will
I'm not different
just a little confounded
to be or not to be
is still not the question
it is to be, we are forced to be
but which one is the question
who too needs the answer
not known nor ever will
dreams are dead and beginnings ended
even the prophecies have a duplicate
refuse to believe the truth
the word itself is a lie
there is no verity anymore
it has ceased to exist
the words of God have changed too
and so has the author of the book
the verity is gone
only what wants to be read is written
there is no more honesty
just whatever one wants to hear and believe
even the reality is a virtual
what we see is not what appears
because the appearance is unrecognizable
in a virtual world we live
every head has two faces
every face has a different reflection
there is no reason to believe anymore
trusting is suicide
one's hurting called upon by their will
there is no escape
only the sinking sand of lies
I have no one
friends have left
love is lost
family has forgotten
I am a ghost or maybe even worse
because everyone sees me but cannot feel